Trauma to Healing

I believe in being transparent when it is helpful and healing. Write where it hurts! So I wanted to tell you a little bit about the trauma I’ve been through because maybe you have experienced it too, and need someone to empathize.

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-When I was 15, I was on a pontoon boat with my family, in the Gates of the Mountains – a beautiful place near Helena, Montana, that was like, a moment in the journey of Lewis and Clark, and a life-changing place for me.
            A speedboat landed on my head that day. Yeah, no kidding. Driver didn’t look, rammed into our boat, went into the air, came down on my head.
            I was in a severe coma for eleven days, experienced severe traumatic brain injury, and then had about three years of recovery. No one knew IF I would recover, or to what extent. It was INTENSE. You can read the story of recovery in my book, Today, She Is.
 
-A few years later, I had a series of violent stalkers. The worst one knew all my habits, my address, my car – and waited for me where I liked to walk at night in a small neighborhood park behind my house. I saw a very tall person hiding with a very long knife just before he began to run after me. I ran. I escaped.

He knew my parking spot, was able to pick my car out of several others, and vandalized it with his knife - the cops and mechanics hadn't ever seen anything like it. It was SEVERAL years before I walked anywhere without pepper spray.

-Since then, I’ve been impacted by gaslighting, and emotionally, spiritually abusive situations. Toxic narcissists. Misogynists. I've fought everyday prejudice for experiencing a TBI, and racism for marrying a man from a very different culture.

-We had an emergency C Section with my son. He went straight to the NICU: they gave him up for lost and sent him to another hospital. When I later met with a nurse who had been there that night, she started crying - she thought he had died.


While I was trying to recover from our son’s (traumatic) birth and navigate out of an extremely toxic situation, ALL of THIS caught up, and my health came crashing down.

I was 31, with a two year old, several chronic health conditions and all the jazz that comes with them. I had frequent bouts of mysterious, paralyzing pain that were way worse than giving birth, way worse than being hit by a boat. I felt like I would be dead within a year because of the trajectory of my health.

I had been scarred by years of misogynistic medical disasters both in the States and in the UK. I was trapped by anxiety. My doctor was out of options for me, and worried.

I was stuck in this place, wondering what to do, feeling like I would never break free from my cycle of trauma, when I had Breakthrough #1.

Chronic Illness Comes From Trauma
I watched this Ted Talk by the brilliant Nadine Burke Harris and learned that trauma leads to chronic health conditions. That was a whole paradigm shift for me to realize that all of my difficult health conditions stemmed from the root of the trauma.

When you go through a trauma - a circumstance that is out of your control and that you do not feel adequately equipped to deal with - even your cells suffer. They are damaged beyond your ability to heal, and cause destruction in your body that results in various kinds of chronic illness.

Okay, I thought. Now I know the problem, and it totally makes sense. But the next question is: how do I heal myself from these layers and layers of trauma?

That question led to Breakthrough #2.

Young Living Oils & a Minimal Chemical Life
A friend suggested Young Living essential oils. I had tried all the main brands of essential oils in the past – of course, who hasn’t? – and hadn’t seen any impact whatsoever. I had been meaning to detox from chemicals for a while for PCOS; it just seemed way too overwhelming a task to take on. But, I also had nothing to lose, and no other choices. And, I hoped that if they could help me get a little relief from the extreme tension I lived in, it might be worth it. So I ordered the Premium Starter Kit from Young Living.

And that was the first day of the rest of my life. I'll definitely share those stories as we go along in emails!

ALL of that is in the past. I am living the NOW, able to love this present moment with my boys. Instead of dreading what I am going to find out is wrong with me next, I am excited for the beautiful future we are manifesting. I am loving life because I feel deep, profound healing in my body. Abundant health and wellness.

WE ARE THRIVING. AT LAST. YAYYYYYY!

What About You?
But what does that mean for you? What I hope this means for you is that, whatever dark roads you have traveled, whatever deep shit you have waded through (pardon my French!), you believe that you can experience profound healing too. These essential oils have the ability to heal your body at a cellular level, to break that cycle of trauma.

I hope that you are inspired.

I want to know your story! What is it like now, and where do you want to go? WHAT WILL IT BE after you take that first step? I want to help you THRIVE.

THIS will tell you how to take that first step.